In the end, all you take with you is your story.

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Showing posts with label Change. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Change. Show all posts

10.09.2010

So Long, Farewell

"Lucky to have been where I have been, lucky to be coming home again."

Those Jason Mraz lyrics have been in my head this week after I heard the song on my ipod and I really feel that those lines especially pertain to me so much right now.

This is my last and final post, and it happens to be my 100th. Really happy to be ending on an even note.

I feel a mixture of emotions as I am about to leave this place that has been my home for over a year now. Happiness, sadness, nostalgia, excitement, nervousness, anxiety, relief, and many other emotions have been flooding my brain and heart. I am not looking forward to my last goodbye tomorrow, but am so eager for my first hello on the other side.

Sean and I took a trip to Seoul tower last night and locked our hearts on the wall along with thousands of others. Just a little way to always remember this city and the times we spent together here this past year.


the man and the tower


Sean writing his message to me


my message to Sean


putting his heart up


putting my heart up


light show on the tower

A little piece of my heart will always belong here. Goodbye Korea.


Namaste

2.06.2010

Quarter Century

In lieu of my 25th birthday, I have been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting on the quarter century of my life that has passed by in the blink of an eye. 25 seems significant for some reason. There are a lot of ways I can look at my life. I can’t help but to let my mind ponder all the things my life is not. I am not a mother, wife, wounded soul, rooted tree. I would say my life is not 'typical' for my culture, race, gender, or age. While I watch friends buy homes, cars, get engaged and married, sit in front of a computer at a desk job, and build futures for themselves somewhere, I am still trying to "figure it all out". I have taken a different path. I have come up with a list of places I have seen and things I have been able to do because of my difference in life choices sort of as a way for me to help sort out all of these thoughts that have been running through my head and clouding my vision due to the approach of this two digit number. So here goes...

I've overlooked the Grand Canyon in Arizona at sunset and experienced one of the natural wonders of the world.

I've stood in Times Square and marveled at the amount of people and advertisements crammed into one square block in New York City.

I've ridden a bike over the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco, California.

I've celebrated Saint Patrick's Day over a green river with a Guinness in hand in Chicago, Illinois.

I've ridden on a camel's back through the white sands along the clear turquoise waters of the Indian Ocean in Mombasa, Kenya.

I've lived in a mud hut with no electricity or running water in Kabula, Kenya, a town that cannot even be found on a map.

I've stared into the face of a lion in Masai Mara National Park in Kenya.

I've stood in the lobby of the actual Hotel Rwanda in Kigali, Rwanda and seen first hand the haunting effects of a nation torn apart by a brutal genocide.

I've survived the White Niles' class 5 rapids in Jinja, Uganda with nothing more than a helmet, life jacket, and paddle.

I've been one of only three white people to ever stay in the tiny village of Kiyumba, Uganda.

I've discovered the wonders of the old world on the streets of Stone Town on the island of Zanzibar, Tanzania.

I've been soaked from head to toe with mist standing in front of the world's largest waterfall, Victoria Falls, in Livingstone, Zambia.

I've jumped off a 111 meter bridge over the Zambezi River while standing half way between Zambia and Zimbabwe.

I've basked in the sun and jumped off cliffs into one of the world's most breathtaking lakes in Nkata Bay, Malawi.

I've seen the home of one of the world's most influential leaders, Nelson Mandela, in Johannesburg, South Africa.

I've experienced the provocative nightlife of Amsterdam's red light district in the Netherlands.

I've stood in front of some of the most extravagant and famous jewelry at the Tower of London in England.

I've danced the night away in one of the best clubs in the world in Mexico's Acapulco Bay and seen the devil.

I've seen trees that bend sideways from a constant breeze in Aruba's scruffy landscape.

I've counted down from 10 on New Year's Eve with thousands of people in one of the world's largest cities, Seoul, South Korea.

I've experienced so much in my life. I realize that my life is far from ordinary. I hope and pray every day that my life choices will continue to allow me to add to that list. I am so blessed.

“two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.”

The Road Not Taken

-Robert Frost-


Namaste

9.29.2009

"Baxter, you know I don't speak (Korean)!"

Trying to find out where to take my garbage was like playing at a scavenger hunt. It seems that there are no public trash bins of any kind around here or at least none that I have been able to find. I had a small build up of trash in my apartment since moving in and had put it all in a plastic shopping bag. I finally found the garbage room, recycled my plastic bottles, but didn’t quite know which bin to put my trash in. I was about to dump the bag into one of the bins, when one of the security men came inside and yelled at me and grabbed the bag. I realized that the trash needed to be completely separated; plastic, paper, food scraps, glass, thicker paper, misc. items before being tossed into the bins. I was trying to ask him in English what I needed to do and all the while he was yelling at me in Korean. He gave up trying to argue with me and then shooed me away with the motion of his hand. He began to separate it muttering to himself. I walked away feeling embarrassed and really bad that this man had to pick through my garbage. I have decided that from now on I will try and separate my trash as best I can and sneak my garbage out late at night in hopes of avoiding another scolding.

While at the grocery store yesterday I picked a few bananas and put them into my bag and into my shopping container. When I arrived at the check out I set the bananas on the counter and the woman began telling (or asking?) me something about them in Korean. She was pointing to them and speaking Korean and I was shrugging my shoulders. I had no idea what she was trying to tell me. Then she leaped over her station and ran back into the store. A few minutes later she returned with a bar code sticker on the bag. Opps.

I stood in what appeared to be the laundry and cleaning product isle of the store for a good ten minutes trying to decide which product was laundry soap, fabric softener, and dish washing soap. I have no idea which one I ended up buying.

There was a strange bell that sounded in my apartment yesterday morning and I had no idea where it was coming from. Then came an announcement in Korean, and I realized that there was a speaker on my ceiling I hadn’t noticed before. I obviously had no idea what was said so I peaked outside my door slowly to make sure it wasn’t some sort of emergency evacuation plan or something and realized it was all clear. I went about my morning and then jumped in the shower. Freezing cold water sputtered out of the showerhead. I was desperately trying to turn the handle to the hottest water setting without any success. I quickly put two and two together and understood what the Korean announcement had been trying to tell me.


Namaste

9.28.2009

Address

I still do not know my actual apartment address, but Hye-sun told me that I can receive my mail at the school and it will be much easier that way. Here is the school address just in case you might like to send me something:

Neulpureun Elementary School
(c/o Jacqueline Scuderi)
Jeongja-dong, Bundang-gu, Seongnam City, Gyeonggi-do
South Korea 463-834


Namaste

9.23.2009

48 Hours

How do you pack for a year? Very carefully. It took a special helper and I most of Sunday to get all of my belongings stuffed into my travel backpack and suitcase. I read that I was only allowed two 50 lb. bags to check in. Anything over 50 lbs. would cost me $150. After some rearranging and then rearranging some more, we figured it was close enough. Everything ready to go.

Monday morning 3 A.M. and the alarm goes off, thus begins my journey to South Korea. My dad drove me to the bus station to catch a bus to O’Hare Airport. Of course it began to rain just as we were lugging my bags out of the car and onto the bus. Once I arrived I dragged my bags to the United counter for check in. Fingers crossed that my bags were under weight. My large suitcase was 54 lbs. and my backpack was 46 lbs. The lady at the counter told me that I needed to make the one under 50 lbs. or she would charge me the $150 fee. So there I sat going through my luggage in the check in line and trying to discard heavier items. I stuffed my backpack along with a few items into a giant plastic bag that I was given. It was a little jank, but it made my suitcase an even 50 lbs. and saved me $150.

First stop: Seattle/Tacoma Airport. Arrived after a 4 hour flight, grabbed some lunch, and relaxed while anticipating my next leg of the journey to Seoul. While waiting for my flight I realized that I could count the number of Americans on my hands and decided I had better get used to being the odd man out.

The flight was 11 hours. The food was delicious, the service excellent, and I sat next to an older Korean gentleman who smelled like my Grandpa Pops used to smell and elbowed me the whole time. Guess you can’t win ‘em all.

The descent into Incheon Airport was beautiful. We came down over some mountains and were able to see some of the islands along the western side of the coast. Getting through customs and collecting luggage was no problem. Everything of mine had arrived safe and sound except my hair dryer. Fingers crossed that there was someone waiting for me outside the gate.

An older gentleman was holding a sign that read “Jacqueline Suzanne Scuderi Welcome to Korea”. I waved at him and said hello while he grabbed the luggage cart from me without so much as a smile. I realized immediately that he did not speak a word of English. We carried my stuff into his van and then departed the airport. Along the road he stopped and got out his cell phone to make a call. I assumed he didn’t know where he was going. He was shouting loudly in Korean and I was trying to tell if he was pissed or just hard of hearing. I could tell he was getting frustrated and then finally seemed to figure out where he was going. Even though he did not understand anything I said and I could not understand anything he said, we had an understanding by using gestures and reading body language. He gently touched my arm to make sure I was not too cold after he turned on the air. He got out two wrapped candies or throat lozenges, pointed to his throat, unwrapped the corner of the wrapper, and popped one in his mouth. He then unwrapped the corner of my wrapper and handed it to me. Later on in the drive he patted the back of my headrest and motioned for me to lay my head back. All of these little gestures made me feel comfortable and relaxed. They also made me see that my first impression of the man; hard, loud, and gruff were way off. He was in fact kind, attentive, and caring.

The ride to Bundang from the airport was scenic even though it was getting darker and darker. We drove over a large bridge that connects the airport to the mainland and then headed through Seoul. The traffic was just as busy as rush hour in the states even though it was 7 P.M. on a Tuesday. The lights from the city were ongoing and I saw just how expansive Seoul is. When we turned off the highway and got closer to my apartment I was in awe of the bright neon lights and all the signs that lined the streets. There are different signs advertising different businesses, restaurants, etc. that cover virtually every square inch of each building. I must say it made me feel a little less foreign to see things like Subway and Baskin Robins.

We arrived at my apartment building and met my co-teacher. She jumped in the van, explained to the driver where to pull in, and helped me lug my stuff to the elevator. Her name is Hye-sun, but she told me I could call her by her English name, which is Monica. Monica is middle aged and speaks English fairly well. I learned that she lived in the states for a year with her husband, a professor, while he was doing research at Arizona State University. She showed me around my apartment, gave me some contact information, and told me she would come to meet me in the morning to take me to my medical check at the hospital which is required for me to obtain my alien registration card.

My apartment is just right for me; a nice sized bathroom, large walk in closet, kitchen with a stove and oven, washing machine, and a front room with a kitchen table and bed. The window is rather large and overlooks the street below. Once again the neon signs are everywhere and I could not believe how bright it stayed in my apartment even with the blinds closed at 2 A.M. My first night here I slept ok, but was distracted by all the noise and commotion down below which didn’t really seem to settle down until about 3 A.M.

views from my apartment

My co-teacher came to pick me up this morning and we drove to my school. I was not expecting to go today, but it was great to get to see the building. It is huge! There are 5 or 6 stories and I just know I will get lost inside. I did not really get to introduce myself to any of the teachers or students, but Monica took me to see one of the Vice Principals. Monica then told me that she would be taking me to the hospital for my medical check today. The Vice Principal, Sunmi, who told me I could call her by her English name, Audrey (after her favorite movie star Audrey Hepburn), drove to the hospital. She explained that her English is not very good and asked me to be patient with her. Her English is not bad, but I did have difficulty understanding her at some points during the day.

The medical check was a little extensive in my opinion. I had an eye exam, hearing test, chest x-ray, blood test, and urine test. I won’t go into details, but I could not for the life of me go to the bathroom and I was all embarrassed because I had to come out of the bathroom with like a drop of pee and stand there and chug water until I could force myself to go some more. Luckily, Audrey made me feel at ease and took care of me throughout the process.

She knew I had been starving because I had not been allowed to eat for the last 12 hours, so she took me to a Korean restaurant in the basement of the hospital. My first taste of Korean food was delicious. The presentation of food here is amazing. There are always a plethora of side dishes to accompany any meal. I had a heck of a time using the metal chopsticks so they brought me a fork. I was also unable to cut my food, a beef stew type thing, so they brought me scissors to help. I definitely felt like the first timer with Korean food that I was.

Audrey and I had some great conversation even though she insisted that her English was no good. I told her that I would help her practice her English if she will help me learn some Korean. She told me that she has a daughter who is 23 and really wants to meet me. I learned that October 2-4 is Korean Thanksgiving, which is a really big holiday here. Audrey invited me to come and spend it with her family. She said that there would be a lot of visiting family and ancestors’ graves, food, and services to remember ancestors.

The trip to the hospital took a bit of time, but was overall not so horrible. When I got back to my apartment I rearranged some furniture, unpacked, and tried to organize. I still have some things to do to get settled, but my body is definitely feeling some jet lag, so I am going to give myself the rest of the afternoon to nap and relax. Monica is supposed to come over this evening to visit with me. I am going to ask her to show me around this area a bit so I can have an idea of where some things are like a grocery store and bank.

I really can’t believe I am finally here. So glad to have made it safely.


Namaste

9.18.2009

Mental Tug O' War

The last month has been more than a little insane. Let me recap briefly; packed and all set to leave for a year in South Korea, phone call 2 days before departure: "no job, sorry", not going to South Korea, contemplating how to get a teaching job at the last minute, trying to figure out where to go, skeptical to take another teaching job in Korea, narrowed it down to Korea or NYC, Korea or NYC, Korea or NYC, Korea or NYC........................ and finally Korea wins out.

This emotional roller-coaster I have been stuck on has taught me a lot about life and myself these past few weeks. I have realized that not everything is going to work out as you had hoped, and sometimes you get the short end of the stick for no reason. I have also realized that my adventurous spirit is strong and a large part of me craves the unknown. I feel that this was my deciding factor in this instance and it has led me to some of the most amazing experiences of my life in the past.

I have decided to write this blog during my time overseas, not only to keep you all up-to-date with what I'm doing over there, but also for people contemplating coming to Korea to teach, and lastly, for myself.

I have not been able to put down the book I am currently reading, Dark Star Safari by Paul Theroux. Not because it is particularly fascinating or anything, but because of his close attention paid to detail and the experiences that he writes about during his travels. I had not kept a journal during my stints in Africa and I find myself re-reading my emails I wrote while traveling in order to get a sense of what I felt and experienced while abroad. I know that this blog will provide a way for me to journal and I will always be able to go back and remember those experiences again through my writing.

As far as reaching people who are contemplating coming to Korea, I would hope that you can use my blog to view one person's opinions and feelings while living and working in a foreign country. I say this because some days are not going to be easy and some things are going to be hard and I want to write it all.

Here's what I know. I will be teaching at a public elementary school called Neulpureun Elementary School. (click on the school name to get to it's website, although it is all in Korean!) I will be living in Bundang, which is in the Gyeonggi province. It is located south of Seoul. I am just guessing, but I think it is like 20 min./ half hour away from the city. I will have my own furnished apartment close to school. I will be working with a Korean co-teacher to help bridge the gap with the language barrier. I know I will be teaching English, but may end up teaching other subjects as well. I will actually begin teaching the first week of October. Other than that, I will let you know when I do!

I cannot tell you how many times I have heard the old "everything happens for a reason" pep talk in the past few weeks, but I know it must be true. I finally feel at peace and am eager and excited to see what awaits me in the Eastern Hemisphere.

The best travel is a leap in the dark. If the destination were familiar and friendly, what would be the point of going there?

-Paul Theroux-
Dark Star Safari



Namaste